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Gee Jia Xin
22 Aug 1991
Seventeen going Eighteen
mylife_jiaxin91@hotmail.com
TP, HTM. Class of 1H06
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
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After having a quarrel wif my bro last week n after having a cold war wif him for the past 7 days in which we didnt talk a single sentence 2 each other n hadnt seen each other face-to-face as often bcuz the oni time we see each other was on weekday mornings when both of us r preparing 4 sch....N today,i woke up seeing nobody at hm except 4 my toopid bro....Out of nowhere,he took a cup of boiling water n splash on me....I ignored him n went to hide in the toilet....After waiting 4 quite sometime,my bro took another cup of boiling water n splash on me....Again,i ignored him....
I dislyk kind of life!I dun wish to have a fearful life in which when i wake up in the morning n when i was abt to reach hm from outside,i've to be bothered n tink:"Is my bro at hm?Is he in a good mood?Is he slping?Is he going to bully me?N wad am i going to do if he does?" N at hm,I'm very restricted to the compound....I'm forced to lock myself up in my room whenever i'm at hm....If i wanted to catch a show on e television,i've to make sure my bro isnt der b4 i can go n watch....N during meal time,i've to wait 4 my bro 2 finish his meal first b4 i can have mine....N even in my room,i've to hide at one corner at times bcuz of the broken door 2 avoid him from seeing wad i'm doing....If i dont abide to the "rules" stated above,my bro will bully n disturb me....Dis is the kind of life i lead....I dislyk it!!I sometimes do hate it!!Do u lyk it?If u does,i'm speechless....Haix....
Whenever i go out wif frenz,my father will remind me repeatedly not to mix wif the wrong company....N to make sure dat i do not mix wif e wrong company,he sometimes request dat i stay at hm....But can i??I rather go roam the streets outside alone den to get bullied by my bro at hm!!
But y cant my father understand me?Whenever he says abt me,it's all e negative tings....Whereas 4 my bro,even though if he did someting bad,my father will try to cover up 4 him!!Almost everyting!!My bro is so well-protected!!If my bro bullies me n i tell my father abt it,he'll ask questions as if i'm in e wrong,n dat's y my bro disturb me....Dis is wad my father tinks n does!!Even if my father do scold my bro at times,he swears at him instead of telling him e right values....Dat makes my bro feel more furious n e urge 2 bully me even more....
Haix....I'm sad...I'm throughly sad n bothered....Nobody understands me(except 4 myself)....I always tink of the prob n a way to solve it myself....N when i do,most of the time,i'll shed tears in my room without anyone knowing it....Haiz....Y am i so childish?!Y do i settle my own probs wif tears n noting else??When can i get rid of those tears 4ever after?I hate myself 4 dat!!I simply juz hate myself!!
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